The Outline Of the Journey

This is the outline of my emotional experience the first day day.

I. The phone call and revelation

II. An appropriate parental response from Michael and me. Even a joke: “At least you’re doing it when it’s trendy.”

III. Shock sets in.

IV. The fight against nausea

V. Calling my friend in CA who went through this with her daughter

VI. Contacting the support group in NYC

VII. Nausea and fear

VIII. Enlisting my support group (AA)

IX. The back and forth of grief,  all five stages at once.

X. Feelings of euphoria. I will go public. I’m a therapist, after all.

XI. Pain, nausea and fear

XII. Prayers for acceptance, prayers for radical acceptance.